A-Mok

Minggu lalu ada kejadian yang bikin gue muntab. Ibaratnya kalau ada orangnya di Jakarta aja, udah gue samperin gue pukulin. Tapi sayangnya orangnya beda benua. Mahal banget tiket pesawat dan ribet ngurus visanya (lah dipikirin beneran. hehe). Di kepala gue seharian cuma mikirin gimana cara ngebalesnya or hunt them down in whatsoever ways.

Gue ga dirugiin sendirian, Mithya juga. (Mithya itu mantan gue). Pelakunya temannya Mithya, mungkin karena atas dasar itu atau karena Mithya lebih panjang sabarnya daripada gue, dia ga ngamuk kaya gue dan bisa nganggep itu kecerobohan ga disengaja. 

Though the person already sending their apologies (through Mithya ofc), gue kalo inget masih kuesel. Gue korslet deh kalo udah marah sama orang dan gue ga bisa nemu lagi alasan logis untuk ga marah.  Semua orang yang ada di kejadian itu akan gue cap yang sama. To return and shakes hands in the future is something almost impossible to happens. 

Kesabaran dan logika gue kadang sangat primodial. Gue kaya binatang. I don't bite you unless you bites me first. Been trying to shook it off for years. It's not healthy right?

GAH. I HATE YOU, G & R. marked this. 

AKU BOSAAAAAAAN
PADA KAYA EEEK SEMUAAAAAAA!

An album to describe me - back in the day.

I used to sleep with Offspring - Americana album playing in repeat. 

That time, in my head, I am a punk kid with that Mohawk hair, sleeveless t shirt and ready to challenge the world. Rebellion is my religious kind of acts.

this!

gue beruntung punya sahabat-sahabat kaya gini. thank you

THE COURTESY RULES OF BLINDNESS

Ten simple, straightforward pointers which encourage sighted persons to feel comfortable and at ease with blind persons, is also helpful to know.

When you meet me don't be ill at ease. It will help both of us if you remember these simple points of courtesy:

1. I'm an ordinary person, just blind. You don't need to raise your voice or address me as if I were a child. Don't ask my spouse what I want'"Cream in the coffee?"'ask me.
2. I may use a long white cane or a guide dog to walk independently; or I may ask to take your arm. Let me decide, and please don't grab my arm; let me take yours. I'll keep a half-step behind to anticipate curbs and steps.
3. I want to know who's in the room with me. Speak when you enter. Introduce me to the others. Include children, and tell me if there's a cat or dog.
4. The door to a room or cabinet or to a car left partially open is a hazard to me.
5. At dinner I will not have trouble with ordinary table skills.
6. Don't avoid words like "see." I use them, too. I'm always glad to see you.
7. I don't want pity. But don't talk about the "wonderful compensations" of blindness. My sense of smell, touch, or hearing did not improve when I became blind. I rely on them more and, therefore, may get more information through those senses than you do'that's all.
8. If I'm your houseguest, show me the bathroom, closet, dresser, window'the light switch, too. I like to know whether the lights are on.
9. I'll discuss blindness with you if you're curious, but it's an old story to me. I have as many other interests as you do.
10. Don't think of me as just a blind person. I'm just a person who happens to be blind.

source:  https://nfb.org/courtesy-rules

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Kadang-kadang suka canggung kalo berinteraksi dengan teman-teman tuna netra, ini juga reminder buat gue.

the urge to banting lempar hape

soy un perdedor

it is only 10.19 AM, but I feel tired already.

The constant nudging from the world makes me feel like WHOAA.

Maybe I am a loser for my incapability handling the multitasking stuff. 

I want to cave in and being a solitary soldier.